For much of the past several years I have been in service to myself, healing from decades of traumatic relationships, which I entered into due to a traumatic childhood. During my hermitude, I volunteered and produced music, video and festivals, but the primary energy was to heal myself so that I could some day interact with the world from a more elevated energy.
Once my son was off to college, having accomplished a certain elevation of personal frequency, I moved to where my mother is in order to help her. Unfortunatley, even though she obviously needs help, she rejected my help. I should have considered this possibility, and the revelation was shocking and hurtful. Ironically, that rejection provided the opportunity to take care of my 2nd mother, giving her son a much-needed break, and time with his wife.
My intention was to give back to someone who had given me so much all throughout my life, not the least of which is the gift of unconditional love. What I have learned, however, in service to her, is that elder care is no joke! Not only do you have to deal with the daily upkeep, but you also have to deal with depression, demands, expectations, exasperation, extended family, and the unexpected turns…. all while maintaining compassion, support, positivity and humor. It has been a humbling experience.
The reactions of different people have been eye-opening. Matrix people regard me as a servant, while more enlightened people have commented on my incredible generosity to engage in such difficult work for someone who is cherished by her community. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter what other people think… the response to “being of service” has shown to me how to gauge what level of consciousness people have achieved, and that is itself a great gift.
FACT: Service itself, is the reward.
In the next phase of my life, I hope to adopt orphans and raise them on a farm, teaching the values and joys of life through the responsibilities of that lifestyle. Instead of relying on electronics for entertainment, they will become self-capable, and self-confident through the development of communications skills including reading, writing, debating and music, in addition to the exploration of nature and connection to God. Hopefully I will find a wonderful man who shares this dream, but if not the lack of a supportive relationship has never stopped me before from accomplishing great things.
Is there quantum entanglement from my hopes and dreams, stretching all the way back to the forward-thinking accomplishments of Josephine Baker? Absolutely. I would not be the first to undertake such an endeavor, not by a long shot! But what greater impact can we make on the future, than preparing as many fully-enabled adults, as possible? '
This is not my only dream. My other great amibition is to help turn around the arts world, move it out of the grasp of Satanism that has taken hold in the past several decades, back toward Divine inspiration.
How great it will be to reward those who recognize and honor that creativity is Divine Inspiration!
How great it will be to help develop a world where God takes the lead in all things!
How great it will be to leave behind the death-cult of Satanism!
The future is almost here, and I look forward to playing a great and significant part in it - as servant to God’s Divine Grace.